It has been an insane week. I feel so overwhelmed, torn between many different emotions and in need of a long nap. I feel like I have so much going on, almost too much to handle.
I missed Taige's funeral today. I had no idea it was already the 19th. I was really upset at myself that I missed it. All because I am totally aloof and unorganized.
My first paid photography job is tomorrow. I am photographing a large family and 5 individual families. Talking both indoor and outdoor photos. I am so excited for the opportunity and am happy that the family has such confidence in my photos. I was hoping to be able to prepare and visualize a lot more than I have. I just pray I am creative and naturally brilliant tomorrow!!
Grandpa Phil's funeral and Kendall's shower, that I am hosting, are falling on the same morning, this Saturday. I pray that saying goodbye to Grandpa Phil and celebrating Kendall on the same day allows Kendall to feel special, honored, and that she is able to remember her bridal shower as a happy memory.
I created the program for Grandpa Phil's funeral. It went very smoothly and I was able to put a great looking program together rather fast. I went to proof read the program one more time and print them. The file would not open. Something messed up with the saving and the program would not recognize the file. So I am having to recreate the whole darn thing. Oooohhhh. Just keep breathing!
Ok, so once I try and vent about all the stuff going on, it seems ridiculous and not that overwhelming, but really some how it is a lot! Maybe it is because normally if I do the dishes and blog on the same day it was a busy day!!! I like my boring, mundane existence! It is all I can handle.
Well, I haven't even mentioned "New Moon" is out and I don't have the time (or the money) to go to Colorado to watch it with Sara!!! If only everyone could be in love with a vampire! Ahhh, fictional life is so much easier and romantic! I may read the series again just to get lost in their lives for a while.
I got my hair done tonight at 8 pm. When I got home Dylan and Addison were asleep. I took a bath without Dora the Explorer and read! As a mom, these little luxuries aren't always first priority. A super hot bath and poetry can boost the spirit and revitalize the soul (ooohhh, wow. That was almost deep!).
Addison was adorable and a little violent and I need to share! The other day I took her to get her 2 year old shots. She was fine in the waiting room and was even expecting her friend Kaidyn to stop by and play with her. As soon as we entered the exam room she stopped and the door and starting screaming, "No, no. No, owie." I had to pick her up and force her into the room. As I took off her shoes and pants she screamed some more. As the nurse cleaned off her leg with a cotton ball, Addi slapped the nurse's hand away from her leg. The nurse said, "Ok, mamma, you have to hold her!" She is still traumatized. Aunt Sara talked to her about 15 minutes after her shots. She had stopped crying by then, but as soon as I handed the phone to her, Addi started bawling all over again. She is pretty much a total drama queen. She was traumatized all over again when the band aids fell off because band aids make all owies better. I wish that were really true.
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AHHH!! What are friends for if not to help keep you sane during the rainy times. If I only knew that you had so much going on, I would have came to your aid. I am not a mind reader! Although the last thing you need right now is a scolding...
ReplyDeleteDo you remember when you, Sarah, & I,& maybe sarah's friend too?, stayed up really late putting together Danny's program & slide show. Then the next day Sarah got to the church and it wouldn't play. She had to recreate it in a matter of minutes. It turned out beautifully and nobody knew the stress involved in it's existance. Well this too will work out. My Grammy always says, "It will all come out in the wash."
And as far as the photo shoot goes. Just keep in mind that you have a natural talent. They came to you because they saw it too. It is smooth sailing from here. Make sure your memory card is empty, take a deap breath and have fun!!! (taking a billion pictures always makes for a sure bet that you will get the right one.)