Pregnancy Beginning Bliss

I had that little feeling in the back of my mind or womb (or where ever that power comes from) that I may be pregnant. Before I got a positive test I took a test each week after I had my IUD out...I know...it was only two tests in total...but I was so excited that we were "trying"! Not that we were "trying" for long! Turns out my mama sense was completely accurate!

I waited to take a pregnancy test until the day I should have gotten my period, Saturday January 8th, so that it would pick up the pregnancy hormone. After peeing on the test I set it on the window ledge and got in the shower. I non-chalantly peeked at the test a few minutes later, fully anticipating only one pink line. I only had my UID removed 3 shorts weeks earlier, there is no way I would be pregnant already...well, I was! Two pink lines caused me to shriek, scaring Addi and sending Dylan busting through the bathroom door ready to fight off what ever was attacking me! I pointed at the test and started crying. The rest is a blur. Dylan and Addi were still re-cooperating from me screaming, but they were both smiling and giddy! The rest of the day went pretty much normal. We finished packing for Dylan's birthday weekend at the forest service cabin.

Later that day at the cabin, Dave, Em, Dylan, Addi and I were standing in the cabin waiting for the fire to warm up and Dylan asked me sarcastically if I wanted anything to drink. I knew what he was getting at and I said no thank you. He said, "Why not?" Em looked at me and said, "You are pregnant!" I said, "Yes." Then we all started jumping and screaming and hugging!

Later that night at the cabin I was kneeling down checking on the fire and Addi came up to me and rubbed my back and cocked her head and said, "Momma, are you doing ok?" I said, "Yes, honey I am." And then she said, "Well, is my baby sister doing ok too?" She is so sweet and caring. She is convinced it is a girl! I tell her that it may be a boy we have to wait until it is born to find out. She said, "No, it's a girl!"

As far as symptoms go the only thing I noticed was I was really hungry for the past 2 weeks or so. I mean starving. I felt like I was eating all day long for 2 weeks straight. I just thought it was a nasty side effect of being stagnant in my cubicle all day. I even joked with Deaette that if I didn't know better I would think I was pregnant. She said, "that wouldn't be such a bad thing!" I said, "Well, I know that I am not." So funny...because I was and had no idea!

3rd week from last period, 1st week pregnant (I think) - I am starting to feel nauseous when I get hungry. But as soon as I eat I am better. My boobs are starting to feel tender and of course I am exhausted all the time. I am feeling excited and grateful to be pregnant again. I am feeling a little worried about my relationship with Addi and how having a new baby will affect that. I am worried about work and insurance and possibly giving birth out of Montana. I am constantly reading about pregnancy and looking at fetus pictures on my phone! It is so amazing to think a little one is growing inside me again. It fascinates me. At this point we have decided to wait to tell our families until we see the doctor, but I want to tell everyone...now!

1/16 - I have my first doctor appointment to get lab work done on Wednesday. By my calculations I should be about 4 weeks. And then the following week I go for my first ultrasound! Hopefully, we will hear a heart beat. My boobs are really tender now and I switched to sports bras. They are so much more comfortable, but makes by boobs look so ridiculous and flattened! That really is the only symptom, so far!

1/17 - I got out Addi's pregnancy journal and the three of us read through it. With Addi, I started morning sickness, strongly, at 4 weeks and it lasted through the first trimester. So if it's a little girl, like Addi, Sara & I believe it is, I should be starting to feel sick in a few days. We are not going to find out the sex of the baby this time around. We found out with Addi and enjoyed knowing and anticipating, but would like to do it the other way this time! I really want to start looking and feeling pregnant. I want everyone to know! I am hungry a lot and eat small meals every couple hours. Addi pretends she is growing a baby sister in her belly too! Addi took my first belly pictures the other day! I am feeling chubby. With Addi's pregnancy I still had a flat, tone, firm belly at 8 weeks and didn't get the chub until close to the end of the first trimester. I don't think that will be the case this time!! I am embracing the chub and am looking forward to my big 'ol belly.

My belly with embryoII, barely more that a ball of cells -- 3 weeks and a few days. (actually 5 weeks, preg)

Addi wanted a belly shot also!

1/20 - I went to the doctor yesterday for some general lab work. The nurse was unable to guesstimate a due date because of some crazy dates that I had my last period. What I thought was my last period may have been implantation bleeding. Which means I got pregnant the very same week I had my IUD out!!! We have to wait until next Friday at our first ultrasound to get a due date. It's possible that I may be a couple weeks further along than I think.

I get so bloated by the end of the day. I feel like exploding. I get flashes of queeziness, lightheadedness and being out of breath. Some foods are starting to taste really gross and I have definitely noticed my super sonic pregnancy smeller has kicked in. Co-worker's afternoon popcorn or random leftovers at lunch time sends my stomach upside down! This past week I have been asleep by 8 pm. I am tired all the time and sneak cat naps in my cubicle at work! Addi like to rub my belly. The past couple days she will comment, "Mom, I think your belly is bigger!"

1/23 -- Ugghhhh, "all-day-long sickness" hit me hard this weekend. I feel terrible. My early pregnancy routine of waking up out of a dead sleep early, at around 4 am, nauseous, exhausted and light-headed has kicked in. I move to the couch with a couple crackers and a glass of water and desperately try to fall back asleep. I am not looking forward to moving this routine to my cubicle tomorrow. Dylan got me some ginger candies and lemon drops which sort of help. Ginger ale makes me even more nauseous, but saltines and cold glass of water seems to help the most. It doesn't last forever right! Only about six more weeks!! I slept most of the weekend and still feel so tired and weak. For me "all-day-long sickness" feels like when you have the flu and you feel like if you would just throw up you would feel so much better, but with my pregnancy sickness, I rarely throw up, so I never get the relief I crave.

I am looking forward to Friday, when we have our first ultrasound! Addi keeps talking about getting a picture of her baby sister! I am feeling anxious about not feeling well at work. Work is difficult enough when I feel well.

1/30 - Oh, it has been one of the most difficult weeks ever. I have been so sick all day at work. I went home one morning and spend my days heaved over my knees, praying the day will be over. If I have to put another saltine in my mouth I might have a break down. I need to find some other food that tastes good and that I can snack on all day.

1/31 - We had our first ultrasound on Friday. We saw and heard the little heartbeat! It was an amazing sound that brought tears to my eyes. Addi was fascinated and just stared at the monitor. The ultrasound dates the pregnancy a little further along then what I had thought. We are currently 7 weeks, 1 day, with a due date of September 18th. That means we got pregnant the very same week I had my UID removed. So much for what the doctor said, "It could take 3-6 months to get pregnant!" As my dad said, "You are you mother's daughter - fertile!" At this doctor appointment I already gained 7 lbs...I can't get full!!

This past weekend we went to Missoula to spread the news to our family and friends. The word spread like wildfire and before I knew it the news was flying over the wavelengths of Facebook! I told my boss at work today and am planning on telling my co-workers later this week. After all the people that I know have been told I will start telling strangers!!!

I was able to get my hands on a giant platter of Hoagieville Cheese Fries...I have been dreaming of them for days! They were exactly what I imagined them to be....perfect, cheesy satisfaction!!! The crazy thing is that is the exact same thing I craved early one when I carried Addi!!

I felt better at work today. I was able to snack all day long and barely got nauseous.